“All I have ever wanted as an athlete, is to be regarded as an athlete,” Hubbard added.
Hubbard stopped weight lifting in her 20s because, she once told an interviewer, “it just became too much to bear” as she struggled to cope with her identity. She resumed competing in 2012, five years after she transitioned.
When she won three titles in 2017, though, her performances led to a firestorm on social media. Her impending exit from the sport most likely will do little to dampen the debate about the eligibility of transgender athletes. The International Olympic Committee has said that it will publish updated guidelines on the issue later this year.
Whatever comes next, Hubbard’s experience may yield benefits those who will follow her. Though she said she shunned the idea of being a role model for transgender athletes and issues, Hubbard is aware of what her exploits mean to a community that remains marginalized.
“I’m not sure what a role model is, is something that I could aspire to be,” Hubbard said. “Instead, I hope that just by being here, I can provide some sense of encouragement.”
And with that, she was gone. She was headed back to New Zealand immediately, she said, retreating into the privacy she cherishes with one wish: that her achievements will be surpassed by the athletes that follow her.
“I really hope that with time, any significance to this occasion is diminished by things to come,” she said.