How difficult was it to accept that you would not be able to defend your gold medal?
It was really hard, realizing that you can’t compete on the level you want. I’ve been doing this for 10 years now. Last season, the last thing I did was become a world champion. So to not compete this season is such a big difference.
Many ski jumpers go to great lengths, often in unhealthy ways, to lose weight for competition. What would it have taken for you to do that?
I don’t know, to be honest. I don’t know if I could have handled it. It feels like my body is fighting against me at the moment. I’ve spoken to many doctors. You don’t have a diagnosis, but it can happen to people who push to lose weight for a long time. Every time, it gets harder and harder to lose weight. That’s how our bodies get more efficient and try to fight against it. That’s proven. That was my problem.
By speaking out about your decision, you joined a growing number of athletes who are opening up about their mental health and physical well-being.
I think it’s really important. If younger athletes look at their idols, they think everything is sunshine, everything is perfect. But to get to the top, and to win Olympic medals and those things, you have to maybe do some things you don’t want to do. And it’s hard work for many years, and of course that can be really hard for mental health.
I wanted to tell young athletes to not do things in an unhealthy way, to not suffer.
I felt like it brought up a discussion in our sport, but also other sports, because weight is a part of many sports, and we don’t talk enough about it in the media. I think people appreciated that I started a conversation about it.
How did it feel, then, to be voted “name of the year” last month by the Norwegian public?
It was really a big honor because I was voted by the people. In the final, I was competing with world stars in the biggest sports. It made me think that I did something right when I spoke about my problems. I was surprised, for sure, but it felt really good. And it gave me a lot of motivation to work in the future and come back even stronger than before.